This week I had to take the train into New York for a work event and I saw the sun rise. As I walked out of my building, I was hit with a whiff of morning dew and I heard a chorus of birds chirping. I’m rarely up in time for the magic that is the early morning, but there’s honestly nothing like it.
When I catch a sunrise, there’s a feeling of purpose that washes over me.
I get that same feeling when I’m writing my memoir. I find it again when I’m spending my Saturday night at the cat shelter. And I recognize it again when I’m mentoring kids who have been dealt a (similar to my own) bleak hand early on in life.
I can’t say I am a follower of any religion, though you were raised Irish Catholic and Dad’s Dad was a Methodist Minister. I can say my favorite Bible quote of late has been, “He will not let you be tempted more than you can bear,” (Corinthians 10:13).
A.K.A. “God only gives you what you can handle.”
I think about this statement when I think about what we’ve been through- particularly what you’ve put me though. And I know you’ve said you’re sorry. And I remind myself to keep showing you kindness. Then I try to have faith that you’ll continue moving forward with a positive outlook on your future.
But I’m always afraid that you’ll hit another bump in the road and I’ll have to pull you out of the darkness again.
In Alcoholics Anonymous, Step Two of Twelve is, “to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.”
I can say, without a doubt, that I find Power in Purpose.
And I’ll remember to leave a nightlight on for you.